postscripting the life of an average singaporean guy

Monday, August 16, 2004

A lookback...

As I look back at my 21 years of life, I can't help but wonder how many lives have I touched? How many promises have I kept? Have I been righteous enough? How many enemies have I made besides myself? How many hearts have I broke?<-- this of course has absolutely no truth in it. Indeed 21 years I am, I am thankful for my time spent breathing the air we know as oxygen. I'm sure if my life was a movie it would have been a long one with interesting factors that attribute to myself today.

My character

I watched a show which had a line that struck on me, a meaningful line, "being a character does not mean you have character"

I can't really take a stand as to how my character is like, as a matter of fact, it is up to you all to tell me what sort of character I am.

I cried alot during my primary school years and my secondary year, it was only after secondary one that I learnt boys shouldn't be crying out in public.Somehow I feel my character was developed during my secondary 2 and 3, I was sorta on a curfew in secondary school, that is I can't go out after school and could only go straight home, thus I sometimes stayed in school and refused to go home so early, needless to say there were times I lied that I was in school when I was at parkway. Got caught a couple of times and control of me was quite tight by my godparents. Still I would like to thank them for having set that curfew, because being defiant and lie about being in school when I was someplace else is better than having no curfew and hang out with hooligans. TV programs were also a no no for me. I could only watch those charity programs and special events like National Day, of course I did sneak a peek now and then and of course watch TV when nobody's home! Anyway the thing is, my other free time was spend reading comics like The Adventures of Tin Tin and Asterix & Obelix, coupled with teenage fiction like the Hardy Boys, all atributed in what way or another into my character today.

My ambtion

I'm sure everyone was poised the question of a future ambition when they were young, I wasn't any dfferent, having TV as the only form of entertainment I had, my goal was to become the successful businessman the actors potray since apparently they earn lotsa of money, it helped too that my dad was quite a businessman I would say. my secondary ambition would have been the cops the actors potray, not just any plain blue uniform cop but rather a CIA or FBI or Interpol or in Singapore at least a CID. All thanks to the Jackie Chan films and the James Bond movies. Slowly as I began to understand things better and with Star Search on the rise in TV, my ambition solidified into being an actor, not an extra but a male lead. I figured actors can be who they wanna be. That happened when I was in Kindergarden 2 to Primary 2. I like the idea of a group of superheros and always encourage my friends to be superheros aka good. I copied many groups such as Captain Planet and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles all for the righteousness. Not once did I ever harbour the thought of being a doctor as I wasn't too sure of what my study capability was. Besides even though with a mindset of standing up for justice and righteousness, I was still kinda like a scaredly cat. As I enter teenagehood, I abandoned my thoughts of ambitions yes not even being an actor, a career of teacher did pop into my mind but I told myself not to think of it much. And so I am now in my adulthood, where after working for a few years, both full-time and part-time, I realised I still harbour my ambition of having an office with a bird's eye view/an actor. However, living in Singapore and reading news has also make me realise one thing, as much as i want to be a successful businessman, I am still somewhat an easily-contended person if I can provide my family with what is essential. My thoughts have thus shifted to a priority an unbreakable ricebowl and secondary objective a successful businessman/actor. Many of my friends might shun me with my remarkably low "ambition", but I still stick to my mindset, having a stable job is better than facing a possibly of failure in doing your own business itself <-- this would be my perssismistic side saying. Nevertheless, I continue searching and looking to see if I could get my optimistic side to have a say, pleased to tell you, what I have found was further studies and possibly masters, where I felt I will enjoy doing what the future prospects of that study will benefit my both priorit and ambition as one. Let's hope I will make it come true.

My size

I was quite big since I was an infant, so I guess that makes me big boned. my dad was big too but did you know that I was actually quite short and fat, I was literally round, amazingly, I grew so tall that I myself sometimes hate it although I would say in current singaporean male, being tall is a privilege. If I recalled correctly, I frew incredibily tall near the end of sec 2, where I started picking up basketball and played it every evening without fail with some of the neighbourhood kids, basketball was much much better than jogging aimlessly. Yes, I was jogging perpetually everyday, not to mention climbing 21 storys of stairs 10 times. All of which were just part of my exercise routine my godparents ordered me for my own good, but as much as I exercise, they allowed me to eat as much as I needed too. haha. Thankfully one of my neighbours suggest that I play basketball and my godparents allowed it to replaced my exercise regime. I am thankful yet again now as I look back as without basketball, I belive I will still be laughed at or make fun fun off by people. Once a round and fat boy shorter than many of you, I belived was about 1.55m now standing tall @ 1.84 to 1.85m still as fat but hey, BMT is coming, you never know what will happen.

My Beliefs

I belived that good triumps over evil
I belived that love can overcome all obstacles
I belived that the eldery deserves our thoughfulness unquestionably
I belived that respect needs to be earned
I belived that enemies are better off as friends
I belived that money isn't everything
I belived that each second we lose we gained something
I belived in the goodness of all people
I belived that I can't change where I'm from but I can change where I'm going
I believed in risking for the just and right cause
I believed that kindness need not be repaid instead be appreciated
I believed in a better tomorrow

I belived you have read enough, Au Revoir!

jh out.~

Sometimes The Road Ahead Is Paved With Anything But Good Intentions @ 11:34 PM

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Not boring not exciting, not lazy not hardworking, not handsome not ugly, not short not thin, not a bad guy not quite mommy's boy either. Regular Singaporean guy who like most guys probably get several different colours of the same shirt, t-shirt, berms, jeans once they fall in love with a particular design. Been through the era of cassette tapes of walkmans to discmans(remember the anti-shock technology) as well as MiniDisc(coming out at a bad time) which obviously lost to the emergence of mp3s and the CD to LD which saw LD losing out to VCDs. Next came the DVDs which 0wned the vcds and try to act smart by having 2 groups, HD DVD and Blu Ray. 2 words BLU.RAY. Loves to reminisce the old days when A&W rootbear float was still around and KFC was still a restaurant complete with waiters serving you Kentucky Fried Chicken. The days where bus fares were 10 cents for students and pizza hut's lunch buffets. Moves/dances to the jumpy music of Ipod Ads and likes to laugh at the Hello I'm a Mac, Hello I'm a PC advertisements!

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